Monday, June 28, 2010

Day 22: Sometimes it's like that.

I know people who weigh themselves every day. They swear by it. I am a little afraid of the scale. I'm fearful that if it doesn't say what I want it to say I'll be discouraged. And I'll eat a Twinkie... or six of them.

Today I was feeling encouraged. With summer being here, I am only in the office every few days and my visits last about 10 minutes so I don't see the staff very often. When I popped in this morning, a few of them said "your silhouette has CHANGED. You're really looking good!" It's hard to take compliments, isn't it? I dismissed their gushing & went about my morning. But then I got to thinking... I had not been on the scale in about a week. Should I...? Is it time? Now that I've been complimented, maybe that number could help me see what they are seeing...


So I kicked off the tennis shoes that were fresh from the gym & stepped on the scale.

No change.

I didn't think I felt any different. But it had been a week... All of that exercise? All of the effort? Really...? It kind of takes the wind out of your sails, doesn't it?

Then I thought about my week. I was good... but was I as good as I could have been? When I needed ice cream, I went to the frozen yogurt place that has zero fat & 32 calories per serving. But then I put one "small" scoop of crushed Oreo cookies on top because... it's not that much, right? Apparently it is.



Or the day we went to the water park. TRUST ME- there's not a lot of healthy options at the water park. So I had some chicken strips and very few fries on the side... but it was hot. When the kids had ice cream in the afternoon, so did I.

I'm sure I could think of a handful of other circumstances where I bent the rules for myself. And I'm proud of my choices, overall. But today... today taught me that there is no grey area when it comes to weight loss. Bending the rules is what got me into this spot to begin with.

I'm not going to let this defeat me. I'm going to learn from it and see what this week brings.

But for today... today it sucks.

10 comments:

The Duckworth Family said...

Ya know, it is hard....and I was just telling myself tonight when I wanted to reward myself with a snack size mcflurry and then reminded myself if I saw another fat person getting or eating it....I would think to myself 'they don't need that'. So I didn't. BUT....I weight exactly the same I did before I had Savannah, after I had savannah and 5 months after I had savannah. But, I have a bigger belly, I wear a size bigger, my strength is gone, my stamina is gone, my energy is depleted. Weight can be very misleading. I haven't been givint my 100% and my body is suffering....so no more rewards, no more cheating. Keep it up girl. Don't get discouraged.

Jodi said...

I feel it for you. We all hate those days. So much focus, planning, and work and for what? I feel your pain. I know it has to get better. Hugs to you.

KC said...

Toss that scale and just use the inches lost around your waist it is the most accurate. Don't lose hope you are changing bad behaviors slowly and that it what matters in the long run.

christina said...

Atleast with the treats you maintained...just keep at it - you are doing great! And more importantly you are starting to feel better!

AstroNutrition said...

I love your pictures and you are beautiful. As long as you are writing about your concerns about your health and staying focus on your goals, you will reach it, no matter how hard it is just keep it up! Check out this book which is called the Essential Weight Loss Handbook that I am reading on how to maintain a healthier life and body. Good day!

stephanie said...

I feel your pain today. I am in the same place. You work out and feel like your choices are so much smarter than they were before...even if there is a cookie or 3 in there. Then the scale says otherwise. It is enough to make me throw in the towel. But I don't because I do feel better and I know the weight is coming off slowly. This is about making choices I can live with forever not just dropping pounds... and in the real world I am going to have a cookie or 3:)

I am inspired by your journey...keep it up woman!!

Rachel Garcia said...

It could be water.... It could be that time of the month.. My weight fluxs..by 2-3 lbs daily and I change nothing talk about depressing.. don't give up at least you didn't gain ;)

Jill said...

I feel your pain :( I have gained weight instead of losing it. Keep plugging along!

Triona said...

I understand where you are coming from, I have been there. It is so very frustrating. I am sending positive, energizing thoughts your way.

Laurens_Closet said...

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for all of your sweet thought and expressions. It sucks but we've ALL been through it, right? I'm just taking the yucky weigh in and going forward with it. I'm going to be more strict this week and see what the scale says next week. And I KNOW I'm doing the right things so that will pay off, one way or another. Or I'll be an amazingly fit fat person. Then I can say I DID MY BEST! : )