Monday, June 28, 2010
Today I was feeling encouraged. With summer being here, I am only in the office every few days and my visits last about 10 minutes so I don't see the staff very often. When I popped in this morning, a few of them said "your silhouette has CHANGED. You're really looking good!" It's hard to take compliments, isn't it? I dismissed their gushing & went about my morning. But then I got to thinking... I had not been on the scale in about a week. Should I...? Is it time? Now that I've been complimented, maybe that number could help me see what they are seeing...
So I kicked off the tennis shoes that were fresh from the gym & stepped on the scale.
I didn't think I felt any different. But it had been a week... All of that exercise? All of the effort? Really...? It kind of takes the wind out of your sails, doesn't it?
Then I thought about my week. I was good... but was I as good as I could have been? When I needed ice cream, I went to the frozen yogurt place that has zero fat & 32 calories per serving. But then I put one "small" scoop of crushed Oreo cookies on top because... it's not that much, right? Apparently it is.
Or the day we went to the water park. TRUST ME- there's not a lot of healthy options at the water park. So I had some chicken strips and very few fries on the side... but it was hot. When the kids had ice cream in the afternoon, so did I.
I'm sure I could think of a handful of other circumstances where I bent the rules for myself. And I'm proud of my choices, overall. But today... today taught me that there is no grey area when it comes to weight loss. Bending the rules is what got me into this spot to begin with.
I'm not going to let this defeat me. I'm going to learn from it and see what this week brings.
But for today... today it sucks.