Monday, June 15, 2009

No Botox for you.

OKAY I'm back. I said I would be and I KNEW I'd hold myself to it since I promised the World Wide Web I'd freeze their foreheads if I didn't blog again. Here's the evidence that I worked out today, too. The neck picture is showing you that I was SWEATY. See, that's the benefit of gaining weight and getting out of shape- you get so much more "umph" out of your workout 'cause you're fat and it's harder to move. You've got to see the silver lining, right?

I weighed in today and I'm happy to say it isn't GOOD but it's not BAD, either. The last time I reported my weight on my blog I was in the 180's again~ I believe around 189. 'Cause I usually start freaking out when I hit the 180's and start sabotaging myself. So today I weigh 195.2. For falling off of the wagon, it's not TOO bad.  I had a pretty good day today~ I worked out for 45 minutes, had some eggs for breakfast, a grilled chicken salad for lunch... a few Gobstoppers... (is that really so bad?) I'm excited to be back in charge of this. Of course, I could beat myself up and think of how good I would look if I hadn't eaten all of that candy and those chocolaty cakes. But when your hand hurts and your kitchen is trashed, I can't tell you how tasty a snake cake is. I digress.

I'm thankful for the fact that now, when I gain 6 pounds, I can feel it. And I don't like the feeling. It's like I'm wearing an extra layer (or five) around my torso. I'm very aware of what's going on. When I weighed 244 pounds, I had a constant dialogue going on in my head about how bad I looked, how uncomfortable I was, that I was the biggest woman in the room... losing weight allowed me to quiet the internal noise. Being a smaller size is nice but feeling good about myself is the best. I'm getting there. 


fatty McButter Pants said...

Heck no you don't need any botox. Isn't awesome when you start seeing your neck again!

Yours is lovely! lol

Sounds like your back...good for you!

Anonymous said...

I've been lurking for awhile and thought I'd finally comment :)

Glad to hear that back on track! Most of your gain is probably just h20 retention... which usually means a nice loss the first week.

Good luck!

Jaime said...

Hey Amy, love your blog, you look great!!
Bummer about the botox though :(

The Duckworth Family said...

So, I weigh in today! Wish me luck and hope it's not horrible! My poor sister who has lost 50 had a gain this week too, but I'm glad to have supports like her and you that dispite gains are determined to not let that discourage!

Molly said...

I read something today that really made me think. It came from an excellent book called Power From On High by C. Max Caldwell. "No act was ever performed that did not originate in the mind. If we control our minds, we will then also control our bodies." I think that is totally true not just for weight loss but for everything we go through in life. It's all in our heads I tell ya! Your doing great! Keep it up!